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A Defense of Nature Poetry
Section VII: Shaking the Toxic Gaze (Vociferations Part III)
Michael Mulligan
Vik Muniz's Narcissus, after Caravaggio has to be one of the most environmentally prophetic masterpieces of this century. Narcissus died as a result of two different types of gazes. His gaze was that of wonder and unabashed awe, but his reflection's gaze fixated him. Controlled him. He was the original egophiliac. He thought his gazing was harmless, simply a pure bead of wonderment, but the reflection never let his eyes wander away.
So, when Vik Muniz depicts Caravaggio's Narcissus using trash, this gaze theory is compounded. We look at all of our stuff with wonder and abashed awe, not realizing that our stuff restricts us, confines us, and fixes us within its controlling hypnosis. We love it, even if it means it will kill us.
Vik Muniz's masterpiece helps frame a third way in which the poets raise their voices in order to wake us up. Sometimes, poets call out bluntly (May Swenson and Allen Ginsberg, see Section V); other times, poets challenge the very core of an ideology through sending a hairline fracture into the ideology's glass castle (W. S. Merwin, see Section VI). This section, "Shaking the Toxic Gaze," explores how James Wright and Ruth Stone vociferate through recording and juxtaposing the facts, leaving the reader to draw conclusions.
Wright's title (Ohioan Pastoral) locates his poem within the Pastoral Tradition. Pastoral poems depict an idyllic, charming, and blemish-free countryside, and they are often esteemed as the epitome of nature poetry. It's just that Wright is a little more honest:
Ohioan Pastoral
On the other side
Of Salt Creek, along the road, the barns topple
And snag among the orange rinds,
Oil cans, cold balloons of lovers.
One barn there
Sags, sags and oozes
Down one side of the copperous gully.
The limp whip of a sumac dangles
Gently against the body of a lost
Bathtub, while high in the flint-cracks
And the wild grimed trees, on the hill,
A buried gas main
Long ago tore a black gutter into the mines.
And now it hisses among the green rings
On fingers in coffins.
The barn is not a picturesque red barn with white trim, but it "Sags, sags and oozes," and it's surrounded by "oil cans," "a lost / Bathtub," "orange rinds," and used condoms. The "limp whip of a sumac" continues the sterile-infertile-impotent motif as it "dangles" against the "body" not of a person, but of a "bathtub." Then, in the final lines, the poem takes a turn into a deep image, an image that resonates within the reader's subconscious.
A buried gas main
Long ago tore a black gutter into the mines.
And now it hisses among the green rings
On fingers in coffins.
Even the ring, a symbol for everlasting love, is tarnished and rattling around the skeletal finger. The dead body never knew the fecundity of decomposition as it is isolated and alienated away from the earth. There is no peace even for the dead.
But the move that makes Wright's poem work is that he offers no commentary. It is purely a juxtaposition of the littered countryside with the title, "Ohioan Pastoral." We are left to draw conclusions and weigh the consequences. One conclusion I draw is that Wright's poem marks the death of the pastoral tradition. No longer can we romanticize nature. If we look accurately, we will find that our trash creeps into the pastoral tradition and into nature poetry, for it has crept into the earth first.
Ruth Stone, a blind poet, also uses trash and juxtaposition in her recently published book In the Next Galaxy (2004). Throughout it, Stone writes exactly what one sees:
Trash is so cheerful, flying up
like grasshoppers in front of the reaper....
...In bits blown equally everywhere,
the gaiety of flying paper
and the black high flung pattern of flocking birds. (Stone 31)
At first glance, the similes may seem innocuously creative. The trash does look like “grasshoppers” in all the chaos of flight, and the “flying paper” shares the sky with the “flocking birds.” All are “high flung pattern[s]” that can enchant the viewer. However, there is something insidious and sarcastic in the line “Trash is so cheerful," especially when we understand what is absent: the grasshoppers. The trash is present while the grasshoppers are merely on the other end of the simile. What should be leaping up in front of the reaper? Where are the grasshoppers?
If only one of her poems used this technique, then it would be forced to suggest that Stone is methodically depicting a world in which trash insidiously creeps into the earth and therefore into nature poetry. As it is, In the Next Galaxy is full of poems that use the same technique. One other example is found within “What Meets the Eye” where trash is compared to flowers:
Trash in the yards
white as early flowers (Stone 40)
All that is in the yard is trash. The flowers, like the grasshoppers, are absent. But this ushers us back to Muniz's masterpiece. There is something hypnotically beautiful about trash. I am reminded of the scene from American Beauty when Ricky Fitts (Wes Bentley) filmed, for fifteen minutes, a trash bag caught in myriad thermal currents, in front of a brick wall. Trash can be as captivating as "early flowers," and as hypnotic as Narcissus' reflection's gaze. But these juxtapositions, as they objectify the images, help readers to shake off the toxic fixation upon all our stuff the moment we realize that the grasshoppers and the flowers have been usurped.
Because both Stone and Wright objectify the trash in their poems, it helps the reader shake off the toxic, narcissist fixation upon all of our stuff. Neither poet moralizes. Each simply sets forth images and juxtapositions. It is a less audible way to raise one's voice, but it still contributes our reconsideration of how we live within the ecosphere. Do we really want a nature poetry that is full of trash?
Some people may object to my inclusion of Stone and Wright's "nature poems," for doesn't nature poetry focus upon the untarnished beauty of the wilderness? Why are we discussing trash? This, though, is exactly the point of many nature poems, which explore the boundary between nature and culture, the wilderness and the city. That boundary is full of trash. Hopefully, Stone and Wright's poems evoke uneasiness, remorse, and possibly a repulsion directed at what has become of nature poetry and the earth. Maybe then readers will be more inclined to heed Ginsberg's admonishment to do our laundry.
The series of "Vociferations," comprising Sections V, VI, & VII of my defense, draws to a close. In them, we have largely considered how NOT to live. In the following section, we will explore a poem that illuminates how to live well, Pablo Neruda's "La Tortuga."
Works Cited
Image from the Rena Bransten Gallery Exhibition Page <http://www.renabranstengallery.com/Muniz_Narcissus.html>
Stone, Ruth. In the Next Galaxy. Port Townsend: Copper Canyon, 2004.
Wright, James. Above the River: The Complete Poems. New York: Farrar, Straus, and Giroux, 1990.
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inside we are trees
twigs leaves
chlorophyll
sucking up sunlight selfishly we
don’t hesitate
be
inside we remain small
infant plants dreaming to grow tall or longing
to realize our ancient wintering
bending scars dry
we bloom sunlight
emerald leaves like rainbows
we glisten
bend wind
knowledge comes from experience weather
>>>
the secret to immortality: bleed sap stand still
sink into the earth
until you are the earth
the aspen tree clones itself—reaching beyond normal
the rings reach for thousands of years
miniature life bursts sprout gold weep red
the new
reflect miniature trees
perfectly
live 8,000 years
do we still feel?
fire bombs grove organism to charcoal
beneath soil roots seethe
survival of the essential
roots learn photosynthesis regenerate
living in new bodies painted by ash

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My First Job
by Christin Rice

My first job was writing books that I sold to my neighbors for a now forgotten tiny sum of money. I lived in an apartment complex and had a lot of neighbors, so business was fairly lucrative for a nine year old. I wish I could take credit for the entrepreneurial spirit, but that actually belonged to the brains of the organization: my best friend at the time and downstairs neighbor, Makiko Matsumoto. I wish I had not lost touch with Makiko because I owe her an enormous debt of gratitude for introducing me, not to a love of business, but to a love of writing (and the belief you could make money at it…tiny sums of money, but still).
It was quite a green business too, as all our great works of literature were produced on recycled paper. Makiko devised an unending supply of paper that we folded in half to reveal the un-used side, then “bound” with duct tape. That girl was genius, seriously.
In true self-centered childhood fashion, I can’t remember anything other than my own books. I hope Makiko’s were equally fascinating to her. I wrote from experience: The Girl Who Loved Unicorns, The Girl Who Hated Cleaning Her Room. I created a series based on a cuddly gang of bears called the Pookie Bear Pals. They had various adventures and were a blatant rip off of the Care Bears. Each book was written and illustrated with my glorious 30-color marker set. When we had amassed a small library of these, we set out a table on a stoop in the middle of the apartment complex (location, location, location) and proceeded to sweet talk (or guilt) our neighbors into making a purchase.
My motivation, alas, was not yet the love of the written word. No. I wanted money, pure and simple. I had recently started earning an allowance for doing chores, and as is still true today, it just never seemed like enough. The object of my materialistic desires was not original either: I wanted a Barbie. My mother, a recovering hippie, refused to let me own one because she thought it would give me low self esteem, given her unattainable shapeliness. Turns out, Barbie doesn’t give you low self-esteem, Jr. High does. But I digress. At the time, in my little nine-year-old hierarchy of needs, Barbie stood out on top, brazenly busty with crushingly high heels.
Makiko and I sold enough for a Barbie or two, which is saying something. I had been hoarding my allowance and anxiously awaited the next time the family went to the mall.
I had not factored in my mother’s Jedi mind tricks. No matter how many times we went to the mall with the exact currency in my pocket, I never returned from the mall with a Barbie. Some large, normal sized doll would be purchased instead and I never noticed the exchange happening. I have no recollection of tears or negotiations, I went in wanting A, got B instead, and played happily with the new purchase while also writing more books to earn enough to buy a Barbie the next time we went to the mall. It was a pretty happy existence, if a little dim on my part. I blush to think what Makiko would have thought of my business savvy.
Imagine how this shaped my consciousness: from nine years old I believed absolutely that it was possible to earn enough money writing books to get what you wanted (or, at least, to eventually get what your mother convinced you you wanted). I discovered the wonder of crafting stories that other people acted interested in. I was able to express creativity in an instantly gratuitous way. I had neighborhood support, a brilliant business partner, and a magical 30-color marker set. Joy, possibility and story: I don’t think I’ve ever gained so much from a job since.
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A Defense of Nature Poetry
Section VI: Challenging Ideologies (Vociferations Part II)
Michael Mulligan
But if you really want to affect change, you have to send a hairline fracture through the foundation of an ideology...and wait.
This is what W. S. Merwin accomplishes in a poem published in 1967:
For a Coming Extinction
Gray Whale
Now that we are sending you to The End
That great god
Tell him
That we who follow you invented forgiveness
And forgive nothing
I write as though you could understand
And I could say it
One must always pretend something
Among the dying
When you have left the seas nodding on their stalks
Empty of you
Tell him that we were made
On another day
The bewilderment will diminish like an echo
Winding along your inner mountains
Unheard by us
And find its way out
Leaving behind it the future
Dead
And ours
When you will not see again
The whale calves trying the light
Consider what you will find in the black garden
And its court
The sea cows the Great Auks the gorillas
The irreplaceable hosts ranged countless
And foreordaining as stars
Our sacrifices
Join your word to theirs
Tell him
That it is we who are important
Merwin challenges the ideology that says "humans are the most important creature on the face of the planet." It is an ideology of human dominance. This notion trickles down from several interactive sources. Even evolutionary diagrams often depict humans emerging from the process preeminent, as if natural selection had a goal. Merwin, though, attacks the Hebrew creation narrative. Since Yahweh made humans on another day, and since we are in Yahweh's image, it follows (or does it?) that Yahweh would agree with the human-centered interpretation "That it is we who are important" and not the gray whale, the Great Auks, the gorillas, the sea cows, or the "irreplaceable hosts" rendered extinct due to humanity's inability to live well.
Merwin's sarcasm is brilliant. The gray whale is supposed to remind God that the extinctions caused by humans should not matter much, since humans are most important. But in the very telling, the ideology is undercut. A hairline fracture sets in. The glass castle is suddenly unstable, especially if we understand the point the Hebrew creation narratives.
At the root of the issue is humanity's inability to understand metaphor. The first chapter of Genesis is poetry, which is true of all the other creation narratives within the Old Testament. Many of them hinge on one extended metaphor: the creation of the earth is the construction of a temple. The writer of Proverbs personifies wisdom as a "master craftsman" who assisted as Yahweh "marked out the foundations of the earth" (Proverbs 8). Isaiah also speaks of the "foundations of the earth," and he later compares the night sky to a "curtain" which Yahweh "spreads out like a tent to dwell in" (Isaiah 40). The poet of Job compares the coastline to "bars and doors" (Job 38). The psalmist states that Yahweh "has set a tabernacle for the sun" (Psalm 19). All of these comparisons combined (foundations, curtain, tent, bars, doors, tabernacle) help us understand what it means for Yahweh to have created humans "in [his] image" (Genesis 1). In Mesopotamia, when a temple was finished, the custom was to then place the image of the god or gods within the temple, signifying that the temple is gods' dwelling place.
The problem is that people read the first chapter of Genesis as an historical account, or a "factual" account (as if truth is fact driven), or as a counter-argument to evolution (as if Genesis has anything to do with science), instead of reading it as it is: poetry. In the original language, the first chapter of Genesis epitomizes Hebrew poetics, but even in translation we get the sense of repetition and parallelism. (The repetition is self-evident. The parallelism is that two groups of three actions mirror each other: the creation of water, sky, & land is followed by the creation of sea animals, creatures of the air, & creatures that move upon land.) When reading poetry, we are not looking for fact. We look for the implications of the images and the metaphors. When the poet has God create humans in his image, placing the image within the earth, it is a tell-tale sign that the point of the creation narrative is that the earth is a temple, a dwelling place for the creator.
Let me say that again. The earth is a temple.
The earth is not, first and foremost, a resource. It is a temple, and this is the context within which humans are given "dominion over the fish of the sea, over the birds of the air, and over every living thing that moves on the earth" (Genesis 1). Having dominion within a temple is much different than having dominion over resources.
Merwin knows, though, that many people live as if the earth is a resource to be harvested, exploited, and manipulated to serve human ends. Many people live out the ideology of dominance as if we are entitled--as if it is a God-given right--to use and abuse the earth. Furthermore, he knows that part of the impetus for this ideology is the (misinterpretations of) Hebrew origin stories (which have been warped out of context). The fact that humans "were made on another day" is, in reality, the Hebrew poet's way of establishing the concept that the earth is a temple, rather than giving us free reign to drive other creatures within the temple into extinction.
Is this not what ecology has been suggesting all along? Eco, from the Greek oikos meaning house. What if the house of the earth is, in reality, a temple? I don't know about you, but I carry myself much differently when I walk within the walls of a temple than when I walk down the aisle of Home Depot. When I am in a temple, I hope to walk as if I were amongst the Giant Sequoias of California. If we claim the temple metaphor from Hebrew origin narratives, there is no difference.
Because Merwin's poem directly alludes to the Genesis account of creation, it invites a critique of the (mis)interpretations that affect society's ideology. Furthermore, it sends a hairline fracture into the ideology that states, "Humans are the preeminent creature," making us reconsider how we live within an earth where so many creatures face extinction because of us.
In the context of my defense, Merwin's poem demonstrates another reason why nature poetry is crucial. Many nature poems, like Merwin's, can challenge the anthropocentric ideology of dominance that too often justifies the abhorrent ways we live within the earth. Our job is to listen.
My next section focuses on yet another type of vociferation concerning trash and the natural world.
Works Cited
Merwin, W. S. Migrations. Port Townsend: Copper Canyon, 2005.
Holy Bible. New King James Version. Nashville: Broadman & Holman, 1988.
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Giving up Perfect
by Erin Dunigan
It usually happens while bathing suit shopping, though the behavior is not limited to that dreaded activity. The scenario is as follows. I will decide it is time for a new bathing suit. At whatever lucky establishment gets the blessing of my shopping presence, I will proceed to try on at least ten to fifteen swimsuits, examining each carefully. “Nope, not that one” becomes a mantra.
Some time and many suits later, I will have exhausted the pile and still be left with nothing to adorn my body in the coming summer months of beach activities. Given time, I will continue this search until it, and I, am literally exhausted.
The only thing that changes that process is a specific deadline, like an invitation to some beach activity for which I will need to have obtained the new swimsuit. If that is the case I will end up selecting one that is less bad than the others, but still not usually what I had in mind.
I have spent years caught in this process of bathing suit shopping, which is why I try to get the most wear out of the existing suit as possible before entering the madness yet again. But then one day it hit me, out of the clear blue sky, no swimsuits even in sight. I can’t remember now even what I was thinking about at the time I had the bathing suit epiphany, but it has changed my life. Well, actually, it hasn’t changed it at all, but if I would only listen to the bathing suit epiphany it has the potential to change my life.
The reason that it is virtually impossible for me to find a bathing suit, without some real form of pressure such as the public humiliation of showing up at a beach party in the birthday suit instead, is that in none of them do I look like a model. The only problem is, I don’t look like a model anyway.
Somehow, in trying on bathing suits, I expect that, when I look in the mirror, I will look, well, perfect. Hmm, those thighs are looking a bit big… Is that cellulite on the backside? It took me a long time to realize that what I was rejecting, in the piles of discarded swimsuits on the changing room floor, was not really any of them, per se, but it was rather the inability to accept my less than perfect physique that kept me bound to try on suit after suit after suit, somehow hoping that one of them would magically change all of that.
The problem is, the perfect bathing suit doesn’t exist. Not, that is, if you are putting an imperfect body inside of it. But even knowing that I still approach the process in the same way. I still try on suit after suit after suit, hoping that maybe one of them might make me look like that model. I don’t even need to be that demanding, actually. Because I don’t really need or want to look like a model. I just want to look like I am perfectly in shape, no cellulite, and physically fit. Perfect.
But instead of spending time working out, eating healthy, lifting weights or doing yoga, I focus on the search for the perfect suit, and that is the fallacy of the whole thing. Instead of focusing my energy on something that might actually make a positive, tangible, realistic difference in the situation, something that is within my control and is something I can change, I expend, I would say even waste, my energy pursuing this false vision of perfection.
The bigger problem, I realized that day of the epiphany, is that this is not isolated behavior. It doesn’t just plague me when it comes time to go bathing suit shopping. It happens at the video store (how old fashioned of me, I know, to actually go into a store to rent a DVD) when I must browse through all of the new releases, alphabetically, even if I find something I want to watch that starts with A.
It happens when dating, or actually, when considering the potential of dating. I would never admit to looking for a guy who is perfect—come on, I know better than that. But there are many other disguises to give this behavior. “Oh, we just don’t have enough in common.” Or, “I am not sure we bring out the best in each other.” With dating, unlike with bathing suit shopping, there is no built in deadline, other than the eggs, which at some point will just get lonely and go into hiding, giving up any chance of company.
And it happens when looking for a job, which I have been doing, in theory, for the past two and a half years. Oh sure, again, I know all of the proper responses. “I am not looking for the perfect job, I am just looking for the right one.” That sounds even more holy when the job is in ministry, after having spent three years in seminary preparing. It wasn’t even something I consciously realized I was doing. I honestly thought that I was really not looking for perfect, just waiting for right. Except that realization that every time I tried on a new career path and looked in the mirror, well, it still looked like me staring back.
So, I have decided it is time. I am giving up perfect. I am not exactly sure what that means, or what it will look like. But needing to figure those things out ahead of time would be a bit like, well, a bit like waiting for it to be perfect. In order to appease my now panicked need for perfection I am offering a compromise. This giving up perfect does not have to mean pursuing imperfect.
Rather, instead, it is allowing what is to be without trying to make it something it is not. In other words, it is what it is, and that’s okay. So, with swimsuits, it means being okay with the reality in the mirror. With DVD rentals it might mean more of an arranged marriage with NetFlix. Dating? Do I really have to give up perfect in all aspects? Because that would mean actually going on dates rather than ruling them out before they even have a chance to take shape. As for the job situation, it might actually mean taking a risk and seeing where it might lead. In other words, allowing my gifts and passions to have an opportunity to flourish, even if it is not the perfect situation.
To be honest, I am not sure that I have it in me, to give up perfect. But, I guess, even with that, it is what it is.
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Letters to Myself
by Christin Rice
I have been an avid journal-keeper since I was eight and got my first diary with a lock on it. It might have been the lock that did it: the idea that I could keep my thoughts all to myself, that there was a place I could process my world. It is both entertaining (to myself only) and enlightening (again, only to myself and possibly my therapist) to re-read these, as I’ve grown into so many different selves since then. I recently happened upon one of these journals, circa age sixteen, full of bad, rhyming poetry and pathos.
I sit in class
stare at the clock,
cross my eyes
wink at a jock.
I’m lost in space,
too dizzy to see,
I want to leave
but wait for me
I come out of hiding
within myself,
my brain is sliding,
nothing rhymes with self.
I don’t make any sense,
don’t want to try
I’m so confused
I want to cry.
I hope no one sees
I don’t want them to know
that I have no heart
and I’m feeling low.
What a silly room,
it’s too square
I’m so bored
I tear my hair.
This chair is hard,
the clock is wrong
I wonder how
much more is long.
If you understand
this stupid rhyme
I’d call home,
here’s a dime.
The boy that fueled so much bad poetry was absolutely unworthy, perhaps an early indication of my inner struggle with dating tools. This particular journal chronicled my discovery of the word fuck. Not in the verb sense, just in the ‘I now need to insert it into every other sentence’ sense. It was actually a pivotal shift in my writing, as prior to that I anxiously tried to gloss over every unhappiness. Once I discovered my inner explicative, I finally began the long, painful process of becoming myself. Now, looking back on the former me I feel mostly exhaustion: it took so much energy to keep up the façade. But in lots of ways, it was easier. Now with my newfound sensitivity to each little way I’m being authentic, I find a new type of exhaustion—the necessity of being completely honest with myself. Believe me, it is really getting in the way of dating tools.
Whereas I can read my sixteen-year-old cringe-worthy journals as letters to myself, and feel only compassion for that crazy girl, the current inspection of self is not so kind. More than twice that in age, it just seems I would, if not be wiser, at least be more quick to act on my wisdom. But I keep writing, because if there’s one thing evident by a re-read of an old journal it’s that writing has been integral to finding my inner explicative and struggling to figure out just how the fuck to live.
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A Defense of Nature Poetry
Section V: Vociferations
Michael Mulligan
Ever since our little tea party in Boston Harbor, the protest has pulsed strong in American blood. It is no coincidence that our first amendment is free speech. Freedom to voice; to call; to put a milk crate out on the corner of Main and 5th, stand up, and shout out.
Vociferate shares the same root as voice (vōx meaning to call), but its third syllable derives from the root ferre, meaning to bear or to support much like a beam that supports a house. The roots, when combined, create an audacious metaphor suggesting that something as intangible as words can support, almost with a physical beam-like presence, an ideology and a political movement.
My number one criticism of vociferations is that, too often, the people who actually listen already side with the speaker. As we move into exploring the environmental vociferations of Allan Ginsberg and May Swenson, my fear is that the audience who needs to hear their words the most will already have moved on.
Activism, or environmental vociferations, is my third reason why nature poetry is significant. As a reminder, my other two reasons are as follows:
1) Nature Poetry assists the cultivation of an ecological self; readers of nature poetry therefore experience the fullness of being embedded within innumerable relationships within the ecosphere.
2) Nature Poetry assists us as we explore the boundary between nature and culture. What is humanity's place within the ecosphere? What is nature's place within an urban setting? Does the earth's language matter?
The two overarching ideas overlap, and as we saw with Bishop's "The Moose" (Section IV), environmental activism overlaps as well. It matters that the smell of gasoline mingles with the smell of the moose, and it makes sense that as we identify with all that is within the ecosphere, we begin to care about the impact of humanity's dwelling. It is our poets who know this, and many have written to wake the rest of us up.
Allan Ginsberg, known for his controversial "Howl," was not afraid to raise his voice. In a lesser known poem, "Homework," Ginsberg speaks on behalf of the planet:
Homework
Homage Kenneth Koch
If I were doing my Laundry I'd wash my dirty Iran
I'd throw in my United States, and pour on the Ivory Soap, scrub up
Africa, put all the birds and elephants back in the jungle,
I'd wash the Amazon river and clean the oily Carib & Gulf of Mexico,
Rub that smog off the North Pole, wipe up all the pipelines in Alaska,
Rub a dub dub for Rocky Flats and Los Alamos, Flush that sparkly
Cesium out of Love Canal
Rinse down the Acid Rain over the Parthenon & Sphinx, Drain the
Sludge out of the Mediterranean basin & make it azure again,
Put some blueing back into the sky over the Rhine, bleach the little
Clouds so snow return white as snow,
Cleanse the Hudson Thames & Neckar, Drain the Suds out of Lake Erie
Then I'd throw big Asia in one giant Load & wash out the blood
& Agent Orange,
Dump the whole mess of Russia and China in the wringer, squeeze
out the tattletail Gray of U.S. Central American police state,
& put the planet in the drier & let it sit 20 minutes or an Aeon
till it came out clean.
Three moves make this poem work. First, Ginsberg makes countless allusions, from the "Agent Orange" used in the Vietnam war, to the location of the creation of the atomic bomb, to the effects of pollution on human structures ("Parthenon & Sphinx") and on the environment ("Love Canal"), to the barbarism of poaching (ahhh, the irony of using "Ivory Soap" to clean up mindless killings of elephants for their tusks), and so on. All of these allusions extend the scope of the poem to encompass the global environmental (and political) challenges before us.
Ginsberg's other two moves push the reader from the global to the local. It would be too overwhelming to enumerate upon all the devastation humans have wreaked upon each other and the earth if it weren't for the extended metaphor of "Laundry" (his second move). Laundry is simple. It makes the reader think, "Yea, I can clean up my little part of the earth. I can do my laundry." His final move is found in the title. The reader is assigned "Homework." Homework, like laundry, is simple. We have a due date (ASAP), and our assignment is to figure out what we can do locally in order to make a difference. All said, this poem epitomizes the green motto:
Think Global. Act Local.
We ought to educate ourselves as to what the global challenges are, and then we act locally to do our part. Finish the homework. Do the laundry.
Another poet who, like Ginsberg, speaks out to affect change is May Swenson. Her poem triumphs in an extended metaphor, which compares weather to a horse:
Weather
I hope they never get a rope on you, weather.
I hope they never put a bit in your mouth.
I hope they never pack your snorts
into an engine or make you wear wheels.
I hope the astronauts will always have to wait
till you get off the prairie
because your kick is lethal,
your temper worse than a megaton.
I hope your harsh main will grow forever,
and blow where it will,
that your slick hide will always shiver
and flick down your bright sweat.
Reteach us terror, weather,
with your teeth on our ships,
your hoofs on our houses,
your tail swatting our planes down like flies.
Before they make a grenade of our planet
I hope you’ll come like a comet,
oh mustang—fire-eyes, upreared belly—
bust the corral and stomp us to death.
If anything can teach us humility, it is the weather. Humanity will never be able to tame it or control it. The main gist of the poem is that weather is more powerful than anything humans can create, including nuclear megatons, but Swenson generates a sense of urgency. We are in process of turning our planet into a "grenade," and unless something puts us in our place and wakes us up, we will continue on our path of destruction. Weather can do this. Weather can "reteach us terror" and remind us that no rope, no bit, can domesticate the elemental forces of the earth.
My only concern with activist poems is that they often only inspire people who already agree. Maybe this is enough. Maybe it is ok that activist poems strengthen the cords binding like-minded individuals together, for is this not the formula for any revolution?
I am reminded of the fourteenth chapter of Grapes of Wrath. Steinbeck speaks of how the "I" turns into a "We."
Instead of saying, "I am concerned about poaching, the destruction of forests, the health of ecosystems, the wanton waste of a consumerist society, and the sheer lack of humility in recognizing how we are, for better or worse, embedded within the ecosystems of the ecosphere, etcetera"--the activist poems enable us to say, "We are concerned...."
And when the "I" becomes a "We," an ideology takes root. Potential energy is turned Kinetic, until nothing can stop the revolution.
Works Cited
Ginsberg, Allen. "Homework." The Norton Anthology of Modern Poetry. Ed. Richard Ellmann and Robert O'Clair. 2nd ed. New York: Norton, 1988.
Steinbeck, John. The Grapes of Wrath. New York: Penguin, 1967. Swenson, May. "Weather." From Totems to Hip-Hop: A Multicultural Anthology of Poetry Across the Americas, 1900-2002. Ed. Ishmael Reed. New York: Thunder Mouth, 2003.
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You Shouldn’t Have
If I were the type to say, “Aw, you shouldn’t have!” … I would have said it to Carlton that night.
When he sheepishly handed me the little blue Tiffany’s bag, in front of all the macho, juvenile guys in the soccer league in the bar after a game, I was stunned.
This was Carlton, after all – the one whom the league rumor mill informed was homeless, or at least very poor, but that he paid several hundred dollars per month for an “executive membership” at the gym where he played. The gym where Ben worked as a personal trainer – Ben, who was the rumor mill, who attested that Carlton spent his entire day, every day, at the gym.
“He hoards stuff in his executive locker,” Ben had told me once.
“What? How can he do that?”
“People pay like $800 per month for executive memberships. They get to keep locks on their lockers all the time. They can keep whatever they want in there.”
I, who paid $135 per month for my overpriced membership, was happy to turn in my key every time I left the place, and then to haul my days’ work clothes and sweaty soccer gear home, dressed in the cute, after-game clothes I’d brought in.
So when the reportedly impoverished Carlton handed me the little blue bag, I was speechless before looking inside. He’d only joined our league a few weeks before, I barely knew his name, he didn’t strike anyone as someone who could afford Tiffany’s, and he’d never shown a hint of interest in me, which was really a prerequisite for any man’s entry across the Tiffany’s threshold.
He looked embarrassed when he slid the bag across the bar to me, causing the bartender to raise his eyebrows with curious interest. Carlton’s awkward stance and shy, darting eyes made the gesture seem all the more inappropriate.
I held my breath, closed one eye, and dug one hand into the bag, clutching it with a tight but shaky grip with the other. Please let it just be a – what? There was nothing that this bag could hold that would make the gift OK, unless the Tiffany’s bag were being recycled, and inside the bag lay a $2 gag gift from a novelty store. Even that would be weird, but at least it wouldn’t be weird and expensive.
I read the card first, because I always held to etiquette. On this occasion, I hoped the card would serve as a tarot: tell me, little paper messenger … what’s in the box? Did you see, before he folded you into the envelope, closing your eyes to the clue? Give me a sign.
“Katie, Congratulations on your new job. Here’s a present you can use as a measure of your success.” I’d switched from one associate position to another, at a different firm. A family law attorney, I couldn’t imagine what was in that bag that would help me measure my success. But at least I knew the gift was professional in theme. Is anything in Tiffany’s professionally themed?
It wasn’t a velvet ring box. Somewhat relieved, I opened the fold of the thin, rectangular, cardboard-but-still-baby-blue box I’d found inside the ominous bag.
“Oh! It’s a tape measure!” Who would spend the money to buy a tape measure at Tiffany’s? Why do they even make one?
“This is the most dainty, adorable little tape measure I’ve ever seen!” It was: shiny, smooth-as-satin silver, with the tiniest little string of tape that revealed itself when the silver lever-thingy was pulled. The numbers were ornate and small. It was functional, but it looked like something rich people bought to display on their new-money, “look how much money I make from my investments” brass shelves, just after they hocked their $5 version from the hardware store into a secret drawer, one with a bejeweled handle protruding from the front.
My best friend’s online search revealed that the item sold for $200, an amount that no one should spend on a tape measure, and that my newly acquired teammate Carlton should never have spent on me. Equally as strange as the gift was the relative lack of engagement with me that both preceded and followed its presentation. We were mildly acquainted that night, and we remained mildly acquainted thereafter. He never made a move, toward either friendship or anything more. I wouldn’t have wanted him to, but if he had, I would at least have some part of the mystery solved.
I didn’t hurl the dismissive, “Aw, you shouldn’t have” bomb at him, even though he really, truly, shouldn’t have, and I wished he hadn’t.
I couldn’t say, “You shouldn’t have” … but as I sit 4.5 years later, fingering my trade-in, silver-and-gold Tiffany ring, I wonder why he did.
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Diminished Roundabouts
Ani Difranco once wrote, “Art is why I get up in the morning, but my definition ends there…it doesn’t seem fair that I am living for something I can’t even define.” If I could make this a mantra, I’d fit into just a few words and tattoo it on my arm. Maybe then I’d believe it completely. 
It wasn’t a coincidence that no one was home the night that she arrived. I was meant to do this myself. The short drive to the UPS store was colder than it should have been, and I was nervous like I was meeting someone new for the first time, as if I had been drinking a little too much, or as though I was finally admitting a lie to an old friend.
The whole event was my secret; I’d evaded plans and sequestered some precious time for just this moment. And yet, it felt like hypocrisy. What was I, the girl who preached recycling, refused to buy new shoes, and boycotted the waste of the meat industry, doing making late night pick-ups at UPS? Certainly my true ego would not approve of a frivolous $400 purchase off the internet. But there I was, waiting in a Kansas back road parking lot for a box the size of my refrigerator. I was hoping to slip her inconspicuously into the back of my car. I had been trying to rid myself of “things.” I was giving away all my unused items to people who needed them more than I did, but she was brand new, manufactured, and artificial. She was created for my aesthetic pleasure. I was about to begin an affair with a machine.
I couldn’t physically carry the box up the stairs myself and was forced to solicit the help of an unassuming bystander. The box was heavy and felt like 100 pounds, but in reality, was probably closer to 50. The awkwardness of the box seemed to double the weight of the package. With aching arms and purple fingers, we finally made it to the top of the stairs. I tore open the box slowly like a Chinook wind melting ice. Before she was even standing, I could hear the music; cheesy songs like Canon in D and Fur Elise were the first wafting sounds in my memory from elementary piano lessons, followed by Ani Difranco’s vibes. God I wanted to be Ani. I sat alone, surrounded by styrofoam, bubble wrap, and excessive quantities of cardboard. My floor was a poster-child for the Riley County recycling center. Yet as I stared at her pristine keys, it made sense for just a moment. I imagined the sounds she could and would make. It was as if I were reaching back into boxes of years and reclaiming something that had once been mine.
There comes a point for every graduate student when they must decide what direction their current lives will take. Will they follow the life of exclusive rhythm—memorizing the ins and outs of research, subject matter, and teaching technique—or will they let their souls guide them? Will they let passion pull them in conflicting directions? The rationale behind graduate study is a good one. It suggests, or rather insists, that the key to success and happiness is just inches away. True happiness actually follows academic success and requires the sacrifice of trivial endeavors such as free time, activities for personal enjoyment, and often, the arts. One can try to balance the two, imagining that they are still abiding by the rules of graduate school rationale, but this balance will eventually fail. There are only so many vacant hours per day after theses are written and dissertations are scheduled. But there are sneaking moments, and if captured, they are free. I finally chose the second route, letting something greater than academics fight for my time. I wanted to relearn to play the piano, and I wanted to do it well. So I brought her back into my narrow world. She takes up half a wall, and I cannot ignore her.
 The first song was Gary Jules’ “Mad World.” All around me are familiar faces, worn out places, worn out faces, bright and early for the daily races, going nowhere, going nowhere. It wasn’t the words or the A flats, but the way the song just repeated and repeated until it finished itself in a roundabout diminished way that compelled me to learn it. Playing the song would be a way of righting the song, making it mine. Frustration was finally followed by recognizable melodic angst and a sound that I could sing along to. With Jules, I reclaimed the base clef. Relearning to read music was somehow more difficult than learning the first time. The acronyms for the notes seemed more childlike (All Cows Eat Grass), but still familiar. Week one was for getting to know the keys again. Week two was for rhythm. In week three, I was running to her after long days of research, after reading about HIV and Darfur, and in the middle sleepless nights to avoid listening to my drunk neighbor’s profanity. I expected to improve more quickly. I expected to validate my purchase with production, resulting instantaneously in a beautiful song. This was graduate school rationale popping in again, but as Gary Jules finally came to life, weeks later, I too began to breathe. I began to embrace her presence in my room.
It is Tuesday, which means 8:30 to 5 and 7 until whenever. I make it home by 5:15 and stretch my fingers over her keys. The room becomes small and my mouth tastes of metal. I can hear nothing but hollow sharps and buckets of half notes. This is the reason for being. Beethoven smells blue and minor chords remind me of five mile runs in the rain. I can’t see time; my eyes are closed, sown shut by rhythm and improvisation. I am painting murals in the key of G.
My new routine is such that music is part of the everyday. It is the first thing I do when I get home, and she is the first thing I see when I wake up. There are still days when I look at her, the black and white statue in my room, with pity, or inspiration, but mostly guilt. $400? $400 for a keyboard, a pseudo-piano at best, which no graduate student in their right mind needs. With $400 I could have fed 14 children in Mozambique for a month, paid my insurance bill, or bought a slew of groceries. And for what? Music? The simple pleasure of the note, the rest, and decrescendos for measures? Perhaps I can someday make music that means something to someone just as Ani Difranco and Gary Jules mean something to me.
Was she worth it? Yes. The invisible tattoo on my arm reminds me that when all the work is done, there is something more to be said. The expression of it all, in song, prose, or painting, is why we get up in the morning.
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Katie Burke
No Divide
"Katie - I know you don't talk to Jill anymore, but I thought you should know about her condition. She is also pregnant with twins, so this is a risky surgery that they're doing tonight. See Kelly's email below. Talk to you soon. Molly"
"Hi, Molly. Jill said she hasn't talked to you and wanted me to fill you in. It's not good, but everyone's thinking positively. Basically, they tested one more sample of fluid, and it showed malignant cells, so it is a tumor. Beyond that, the doctors just aren't sure and are very perplexed, so they've decided to do surgery, during which they'll do more tests and maybe take the tumor out, maybe take the whole muscle out, depending on what they find. -Kelly"
So this is how it happens. You love Jill with your whole heart, for years and through fights and in support of her dreams. You laugh together at your group's lunch spot, at the lockers outside Mr. Lundy's classroom.
You pass notes in the hallway, and before each Biology class, you hope she has a new one ready for you - because science is boring, and her teen angst is your world, because you're a teen too, and she is your friend. There is no rational separation, no divide between her hurts and yours.
The last time you see Jill before you both leave for college, you bend forward, your sobs propelling your head into your hands and your chest toward the floor. You gather your strength and look at her ... and she, too, is overcome.
The fights continue beyond high school, and who can remember how they start or why they end, but they do, many times. Friendship repair now means interstate phone calls, and you forsake the notes and replace them with emails. Until one day, when a swift email exchange ends it all: she cuts you down like many times before, and that marks one time too many, and you write her off and tell her you're done.
Three years later, Molly forwards you Kelly's "it is a tumor" email.
"Jill. Molly told me about your terrible news. I don't know if you want to hear from me, but I have to say that I love you, and I'm here for you if you want me to be. Katie"
"Katie, Although we haven't been in touch in several years, you are one of my oldest and dearest friends, and I would certainly want to hear from you. The doctors are confident that this will be successfully treated and I will be fine. One doctor said that radiation melts these types of tumors, and there's evidence that my body has been killing it off on its own. So, I will be fine. I love you. Jill"
Three months later, Jill's husband starts a blog to chronicle her medical status. You are grateful for this, as no one has answered your emails requesting updates. From the blog, you learn that in those three months between the tumor email and the blog, Jill's life has been terrible, painful, bedridden. Chemo and radiation. And you've only been in the periphery, because right now, that's how close Jill can let anyone get - except her closest friends, of which you are no longer one.
Though your sobs heave you forward as you read the blog, feeling helpless to resolve either Jill's cancer or your broken friendship, or both, you know that "as close as you can get" is as near as you should be. The friendship didn't work, and it wasn't for lack of love ... but when her capacity to reach beyond sickness is limited, and the years between you are many, you accept that your presence in her life is reduced to notes.
Notes. Just like old times.
So you send emails, and then you travel back in time and send old-fashioned mail: the "I'm here to support you through your cancer" card. The one you never imagined sending her, when life was simple and your arguments were all that lay between you.
And Jill, who stood and laughed with you for hours in Disneyland lines, feels impossibly far away. Cancer separates you now, but there's still no divide between her pain and your own.

One day, you take an emotional risk. You call Jill's home, terrified she will answer and say you've got some nerve calling at a time like this, given that you've missed everything that happened these past few months. Or maybe her husband will pick up the phone and say it. And even though you emailed for updates, and even though the last news was positive, you won't know what to say in response.
Forgoing the call and sending an email would be far less risky. But you trust that Jill still needs you, if only in recorded voice message form. Suddenly, the thought of sending only an email feels irresponsible and selfish.
The phone rings. The outgoing recording features Jill's lively voice, and she sounds so happy, you know it was recorded over three months ago.
You leave a message. Finally, Jill feels closer. And you hope she feels it, too.
(Writer's Note: Other than mine, the names provided in this post are changed, to protect the anonymity of the people referenced herein.)
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White Wine and NPR
by Valerie Searing
driving over the ocean, we can see two islands of light coupling our east and west.
the night is wilting like an iris. our eyes glazed by this revelation and silence.
this is where we exist.
you hold my hand across black leather and blow haze into my face.
three years ago, the poems knew the force of your wind. jazz had never been so violent.
drinking white wine to NPR, you sliced peaches down the middle and filled oats with brown sugar. i wondered what it was that you hated about me so much that made you invite me to dinner. i brought the wine; you brought the pipe.
smoke was remedy for silence. we were writing the same stanza.
i tell you to play jazz forever, because your face is straight. my fingers imagine your hair a river; your eyes are blue to shadows, and we regret not talking more.
you were mine, but i didn’t know you. only mingus held your hand.
germany was distance between severed. we met those missing and walked fanfare streets, laughing and planning for tattoos and future craze. i never stayed long enough.
the poem was you in midnight parks and three uses for swings, lips, fingers. you made the best food and a fool of me.

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A Defense of Nature Poetry
Section IV: The Threshold between Two Worlds: A Look at Elisabeth Bishop's "The Moose"
Bishop's poem, "The Moose," is too long to quote in its entirety, but it is a must read. Off and on, for several months, my wife would mention the poem, encouraging me to read it. I started it once, and I couldn't make it through the first sentence (which is six stanzas long). The main clause of the sentence is "the bus journeys west" (ln 26), and at the time I failed to realize that the sentence is long because the bus ride is long. Iconicity, in short, where the form of the poem somehow resembles the content.
The poem revisits the themes we explored in Section II of this defense, the boundary between nature and culture. Culture is represented by the bus, and Bishop spends twenty-one and a half stanzas exploring the world of the bus that is traveling from Canada down to Boston through the New Brunswick forest. Nothing really happens, plot-wise. People board, the sun sets, miles upon miles go by with a monotonous description of all the nonhuman life the passengers could identify with. They don't. Bishop even spends several stanzas capturing the classic passenger who drones on and on while a poor soul must nod on and on.
Amidst the monotonous bus ride, Bishop foreshadows the enchanted encounter with the moose through the image of a moon-drenched, mist-drenched forest:
Moonlight as we enter
the New Brunswick woods,
hairy, scratchy, splintery;
moonlight and mist
caught in them like lamb's wool
on bushes in a pasture. (ln 79-84)
Though they have entered the world of the moose, the passengers are oblivious, until the poem enters its rising action with that powerful word, suddenly:
--Suddenly the bus driver
stops with a jolt,
turns off his lights.
A moose has come out of
the impenetrable wood
and stands there, looms, rather,
in the middle of the road.
It approaches; it sniffs at
the bus's hot hood.
Towering, antlerless,
high as a church,
homely as a house
(or, safe as houses).
A man's voice assures us
"Perfectly harmless. . . ."
Some of the passengers
exclaim in whispers,
childishly, softly,
"Sure are big creatures."
"It's awful plain."
"Look! It's a she!"
Taking her time,
she looks the bus over,
grand, otherworldly.
Why, why do we feel
(we all feel) this sweet
sensation of joy?
"Curious creatures,"
says our quiet driver,
rolling his r's.
"Look at that, would you."
Then he shifts gears.
For a moment longer,
by craning backward,
the moose can be seen
on the moonlit macadam;
then there's a dim
smell of moose, an acrid
smell of gasoline. (ln 130-168)
Twenty-one and a half stanzas of exposition, and only six and a half stanzas of rising action, climax, and resolution. But that is part of the point. The time most humans spend in the world of the bus overwhelms the time spent in the world of the moose.
Bishop's poem reminds us of how intense the identification with the world of the moose can be. It breaks in upon our monotonous world, filling our life with wonder. Every passenger feels a "sweet / sensation of joy" as they witness the grandeur of such a creature. Furthermore, when the bus driver moves on, the passengers are "craning backward," striving to preserve the moment for as long as possible. The lunar beams, which established the mystique of the forest, intensify the final image of the moose standing on the "moonlit macadam" (gravelly road), while the sounds grow deep with the alliteration of the "m."
One way to explore Bishop's poem is through applying the concepts from Section I: ecological identification. Eco, from the Greek oikos, means house. An ecopoetics explores how poetry illuminates the interrelationships within the house of the earth. Just as Whitman and Dickinson's poetry explores an identification with nonhuman life, so Bishop's poem, for it preserves the energy of the moment a group of people identify with a moose. The ecological self expands.
Another way to explore Bishop's poem is through analyzing the subtle suggestiveness near the end of the poem. Bishop raises questions concerning an environmental ethic. The poem was published in 1976, over a decade after Rachel Carson published Silent Spring marking the beginning of the modern environmental movement (1962). In other words, Bishop is not using the word "gasoline" lightly. The poem raises the questions concerning the boundary between the two worlds, the bus and the moose. This threshold is emphasized through the olfactory sensations at the poems conclusion:
then there's a dim
smell of moose, an acrid
smell of gasoline. (ln 130-168)
How do these two worlds mingle? Will we ever appreciate the world of the moose if so much of our life is spent in the world of the bus? If the passengers never saw the moose, they would not have seen much value in the forest. Should the world of the moose be preserved?
I love how the poem makes no judgments. It states the facts. The smell of gas is present as is the smell of the moose, but as the two smells mingle, the poem transforms from an ode into an ideological questioning of humanity's place within the ecosphere. The reader is left to draw his or her own conclusions.
Rarely do the contemporary poets write about nature without some sort of environmental questioning. This is one of the jobs of the poet, to initiate thought (and later action), and it is yet another point to my defense of nature poetry. Now it is almost fashionable to care about the environment, but looking back, I marvel at how the poets have already been exploring an environmental awareness concerning the mingling of the two worlds. What is our place within the fabric of the ecosphere?
Bishop's move is subtle, but powerful. We linger in the image of the moose and in the two smells. In the following section of "A Defense of Nature Poetry," a much more direct environmental message will be explored. It is almost a manifesto: Ginsberg's "Homework." Would we expect anything less from the author of "Howl"?
Works Cited
Bishop, Elizabeth. The Complete Poems. New York: Farrar, Straus, Giroux, 1983.
Picture by Michael Mulligan
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Coast to Coast Hike
The day began ambitious enough: I was going to walk from the Pacific Ocean to the Tasman Sea, crossing through all of Auckland. Quite a way to see New Zealand, I thought. On foot there’s so much more time to notice the tiny nuances of a place. It was not an original idea; there was actually a Coast to Coast walk designed specifically for tourists like myself who were too afraid to bungee jump but still need to feel like they’ve accomplished something on a vacation. So I began by picking up the map at the iSpot near the ferry building. Except they only had Xeroxed copies, and actually, the kind woman informed me, they were all out of the sheets to accompany the maps that “included some information.” Please, I thought: the map is fine. I exist in San Francisco sans vehicle and therefore feel a sense of pride by my inner GPS. She said it would take 4 to 6 hours to complete the hike. “Some information” sounded code for boring anyway. So I took the two page blurry Xeroxed map and made off to take the first photo of what was sure to be an adventure. Photo #1: map lying on pier at Pacific Ocean. Onward!
I was led beside the University, a place that immediately reminded me of Princeton with its stone, towers and cicadas. Then I was to head toward some large empty looking space on the map called Auckland Domain. Lovely concept, except it was about now I realized entire streets that I was to traverse were unmarked on my two page 8 ½” by 11” map. No problem, I of course also had my handbook of Auckland readily available in my backpack next to the sunscreen. Okay, so I realized I had walked a good 8 blocks out of my way. No worries, the day was early still. There was only a slight pain in my ankle, I was sure it would wear off. The Domain ended up being a large grassy place that didn’t make any sense to me. Whatever, I had an average pace to beat so I walked on.
I stopped for lunch in a cemetery. Four days into my New Zealand journey I had already kind of given up on the concept of finding food that was yummy (the drink and candy were, no doubt. But I’d given up on entrees), so I grabbed a wrap at a convenience store and snapped a picture of the neighboring headstone. I then marched onward toward One Tree Hill, which led promisingly to the second page of my map.
From my journal: “In the middle of my coast to coast walk, stopped for a Belle-Vue Kriek (a cheery cherry beer) at a cute Belgium pub. This is no slouch of a walk—so far almost entirely uphill and it’s quite humid today. But I’m having fun. It’s a bit like when I go for a run though: I’m so focused on finishing that I have to remind myself to enjoy the whole dang process.”
The walk then started to take on epic proportions. Terrible pain in feet, Ibuprofen did nothing. At One Tree Hill, there was an ice cream stand, and I decided ice cream was critical to my happiness—but no was one there to sell it to me. So I trudged on, grimacing at the sheep who mugged for the camera. 
Half way through I discover the giant crater place, another “Domain” (I start to think domain is code for expanse of green at great angle, I resolve to google this if I ever finish the hike) and a signpost with a fading decal with an arrow pointing to the Coast to Coast walk. I’m on the right path! I feel a great sense of reassurance and belonging because of this signpost. I am not alone. I hope at least one other person on this walk has at this point thought: hey, this is a stupid idea. I could give up and take the bus to the Tasman Sea, and just not tell anyone!
Three quarters of the way along my walk I find not only that same decal but a large posted map…and a water-damaged copy of what was surely the “some information” that I didn’t have due to iSpot supplies. Shit! The several undamaged points listed included local folklore about a house on a certain corner, an architectural oddity, a story of a street name. All those freaking nuances I went walking for in the first place!!! I immediately realized there was a metaphor going on here about how I live my life and pressed on ahead, determined to kick this stupid walk’s ass and get that last freakin’ photo, and dammit my ankle hurt!
Finally, I glided down Norman’s Hill road, the last street in my journey, nourished by the sweetness of the neighborhood, smiling in anticipation of the view of my final destination that lay at the end of it. I crossed the street. I positioned my camera ready to capture that first view of a Sea I’ve never seen.
Grey. Power lines. Highway. Asphalt. Cement. More power lines. More grey. Ugly.
Defeated, betrayed, I snapped the last photo. The place was something hideous, depressing, quickly resembling the inside of my brain. Glaring at the citizens of Onehunga who were unfortunate enough to cross my path on the way to the bus stop, my ankle screamed at the injustice of it. I began to script my version of the “some information” that surely should have been included.
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Find a Day Job
I enjoy writing. I love it when I turn a phrase with perfection and I’m just narcissistic enough to believe that others want to read it when I do. I have some good friends who are writers and when we get together, the collection of intellect is staggering. When people walk by us and eavesdrop, I simultaneously envy and pity them. Envy because I wish I could overhear such brilliance. Pity because I know they wish they could be us. I only wish that being around every writer would yield such satisfaction.
I sat in the audience of a panel of women publishers the other evening and I confess I was uncomfortable. Don’t get me wrong, the ladies were engaging as they shared anecdotal insights of their journey as writers turned editors, it’s just that I tend to get a tad bit embarrassed when I am around others in my field of study. My hyperbolic opening paragraph aside, I don’t actually profess to be a genius with a pen – though with a keyboard I’m pretty amazing – but when I’m surrounded by other writers I feel like I should have been math major. Perhaps this particular evening was especially uncomfortable because of the sobering turn that the discussion would eventually take. When the panel was done giving some personal history about themselves, they answered questions from all the wannabe authors in the room. There were so many hopeful writers looking to get the inside tips from the experts to help them get on their way to literary fame and fortune. It was really quite sad. I understand that everyone is anxious to get published and spend their mornings picking out just the right pantsuit to wear to their book signing, but I expected a little more savvy out of the semi-educated crowd. The questions were hopeful, but mostly inane. To wit:
“So, how do you get published?”
Nice and broad. How do you even respond to this?
“Well hon, write something worth reading and shtupp a well respected agent.”
The ladies were nicer than me and answered her as if a different question had been asked. This did not sate the onlookers as more questions arose that essentially all translated to one big: But how do we make the monies? Overall, the responses amounted to the simple lesson of write because you enjoy the experience of writing, not because you think you will be able to rely on it to pay your cable bill. This should be lesson number one for every would-be Creative Writing major. I had the good fortune of being taught this by my English professor back in Junior College when she told me that I should write because I am writer, but any cash or fame associated with writing would be purely accidental. The night of the panel, I wished everyone would have just realized that nobody cares about their goddamned vampire love stories.
Someone asked the eldest of the panel about any advice that she might have for aspiring writers. Again, not particularly focused, but the enthusiasm with which it was asked almost made it sweet, if not slightly pathetic. It was at this point that things turned a bit gloomy. The publisher to whom the questioned was directed took this moment as the opportunity to mourn every decision she had ever made in regard to deluding herself into thinking focusing on writing was a good idea. A simple don’t quit your day job would have sufficed, but she essentially lamented long and dismally on how if you don’t switch to a business degree you’ll spend the next thirty years eating pork and beans out of a can.
Everyone on the panel started to share in the pain and the collective bubble of every wishful thinker in the audience was burst, leaving a residue of regret and shattered dreams. Suddenly, my schadenfreude instincts kicked in and I was feeling very satisfied. I’m not an awful person, but I’ve read some of the work represented in the room that night and this message of hopelessness was one that needed to be communicated. The panel was saving the audience from themselves. Most of the venom was directed at fiction writers. Their takeaway from the evening was basically, you are not Stephen King, you are not even Steve Guttenberg. To be fair, I’m sure there was some talent sprinkled throughout the crowd, and many will be published, even if only by some smug little webzine run by some dick who thinks he’s better than everyone else.
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A Defense of Nature Poetry
Section III: The Language of the Earth
Mountains speak to us, but is it oratory? Whale songs rhyme, but is it poetry? Elephants mourn, but do their thoughts eulogize? Ravens grieve through collective rituals--communal expressions of movement--but is it art? Animals symbolically mark territory, other animals read those signs and understand (semiotics, in short), but is this language?
Many poets challenge us to consider, more and more, answering "yes" to these questions. One such poet is W. S. Merwin, who recently won his second Pulitzer Prize (April 20, 2009). In a poem published in 1967, "The Cold before the Moonrise," Merwin modestly listens to the language of the earth, and he inspires readers to do the same.
In the context of the overall Defense of Nature Poetry, Merwin's poem recapitulates the process outlined in Section II: identification with inanimate or animate life leads to questioning the assumptions within a human-centered ideology, which can, in turn, lead to a change in lifestyle. The beauty is that he accomplishes all of this (and more) through a title and seven short lines. One reason why nature poetry ought to be a cornerstone of education is its brevity. The ideas are crystallized, allowing us to explore vast terrains of thought if we are willing to linger.
I quote the poem with its title; otherwise, the reader may overlook the interplay between the two:
The Cold before the Moonrise
It is too simple to turn to the sound
Of frost stirring among its
Stars like an animal asleep
In the winter night
And say I was born far from home
If there is a place where this is the language may
It be my country
When it comes to punctuation, Merwin underwent a sea-change. His early poems are punctuated as normal, but there came a point when he decided to give it all up, cold turkey. In Migration, a book encapsulating the whole of his work up until 2004, the last two punctuation marks are on page 101. Throughout the following 400 pages, not a single punctuation mark exists. We may think that his move is jejune, until we hear his reason. He believed (and believes) that punctuation marks pin his words to the page too aggressively, an effect he chooses to avoid. For clarity, however, it may be useful to reread the poem with the punctuation marks:
The Cold before the Moonrise
It is too simple to turn to the sound
Of frost stirring among its
Stars like an animal asleep
In the winter night
And say, "I was born far from home."
If there is a place where this is the language, may
It be my country.
Ah! The infinitive of the first line captures the first and essential step of ecological identification, "to turn"--to turn from egophilia to the earth, from a narcissistic gaze towards something other, from an anthropocentric fixation towards something inanimate but alive, from a narrow concept of language to the speech patterns of the earth.
The speaker of the poem turns to "the sound / Of frost," and the inanimate, growing mystery is compared to the "stirring" of an "animal." The frost is alive, and the formation of crystals creates a noise, slight as it may be. The noise arrests the speaker of the poem and inspires a turn toward something nonhuman. To echo Section I of this defense, the Whitmanesque self identifies with yet another phenomenon of the earth, and the self expands.
There is something ineffable about the moment Merwin writes about it, but the moment, because it is ineffable, demands a response. "It is too simple" to witness the ineffable moment and state, "I was born far from home." Such a response says too little, is too passive, and leaves too much unsaid. His second response directly expresses his desire to make the "place where [the sound of frost] is the language" not only his home, but his country--a place in which he could pledge allegiance.
His desire for the language of the earth is emphasized through a sharp irony. We may have thought that the place where the poet would be most at home is within poetic language. Words. Images. Metaphors. And yet Merwin seeks another language, the sound of frost stirring. If the poet is not at home in human language, how can we be?
Along with the sharp irony, Merwin makes another subtle move. As we linger in the poem, we recognize that he grants us an opportunity to turn to the sound of frost stirring through the onomatopoetic hiss of the s's:
It is too simple to turn to the sound
Of frost stirring among its
Stars like an animal asleep
The mimesis of the sound, expressed through the s's, allows the reader to experience a turn, a turning toward the poem. As we turn toward the poem, we discover another surprise. The ineffable stirring of frost will become even more unsayable if we carry through the imminent image. The moon has not yet risen, but the title suggests that the moon is about to rise. Once the moon rises, the motions of the "stirring animal" will be enchanted by a flood of lunar beams, which will refract through the crystals, intensifying the moment through adding the visual dynamic. We hear the frost in the s's, and we see its mystique in our imagination through turning towards the poem. Turning towards the poem consequently inspires us to turn towards the earth.
Identifying with the sound of frost leads to a questioning of the assumption that the earth has no language. Many who read this article will, on a technical level, disagree with the concept that the sound of frost is a language. (I will refrain from discussing the fractal expression of frost, something that our language of fractal geometry merely begins to understand.) Regardless, the poet pushes the reader to consider the possibility, and he does so modestly. Merwin makes no statement that we must adopt his ideology; rather, he inspires readers "to turn" simply through the example.
Returning to the cycle, identification leads to questioning, which can lead to a change in lifestyle. The lifestyle change "The Cold before the Moonrise" inspires may not seem radical, but it could be, for many people, a sea-change. Simply put, the poem suggests that we are incomplete without the language of the earth. A person who reads Merwin may seek moments to listen to the language of the earth. This leads us to a question. How much should culture be influenced by the language of the earth? How much nature should be in human society?
I am grateful that the editors of Culture-Voice demonstrate that nature is a part of culture (and discussions about culture) through their inclusion of A Defense of Nature Poetry. A culture or a person that silences the language of the earth will never know the fullness Whitman, Dickinson, and Merwin knew. Even in an urban context far from "the wild," frost creeps. Thinking back to Section I of this defense, failing to identify with nature causes a dimension of life to be lost, and the human will only know the isolation of Whitman's "noiseless...spider."
My next section will continue to develop the theme of identification, and it will do so through a close-read of Elisabeth Bishop's "The Moose." Her poem will add the dynamic of environmental ethics, for it explores the intersection of two worlds: 1) the world of bus with its gasoline, and 2) the world of a moose lumbering through a moon-drenched forest.
Works Cited
Merwin W.S. Migration: New and Selected Poems. Port Townsend: Copper Canyon, 2005.
Photograph from <http://outdoors.webshots.com/photo/1056499815010428380UUWbIR?vhost=outdoors>
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Stick and Move: Tips and Tricks for Changing Your Address
I’m moving in just a couple days. I’ve been trying for two weeks to get the cable company to agree to turn on service at my new address. They keep telling me no, that the current resident’s service is still active. To prove that I’m moving there, I need to bring a copy of the new lease to one of their payment offices. And that’s okay with me. It’s actually easier than the interrogations my wife and I have endured while informing other businesses of our new address.
When my wife called the bank this morning, they asked each of the following questions:
“So you would like to change your address?”
“We can certainly help you change your address, is that what you are requesting?” 
“Are you changing your physical address?”
“Is this also your mailing address?”
“Is this also your billing address?”
“Are you also changing your email address?”
“Do you have any other addresses you would like to change today?”
“Would you like to make this change for all your accounts?”
“What are you wearing?”
Okay, I’m not sure about the last one — although my wife did blush a bit during the conversation. I actually think it would be nice if they asked something like that to wrap up the conversation — at least then I’d know they have a sense of humor.
The thing is, I’m happy that these customer service representatives are being thorough. But do they have to be stupid? I highly doubt they are truly any less doltish than the average person. I think the company mandates that members of the customer service department think, act, and react like fuckwits.
And it was just the bank. A different company required three separate customer service reps to handle the job.
But I don’t want to simply write a peevish review of these people. Like every time a celebrity goes to rehab, I think it’s important to use what I have learned during this terrible time to help others languishing in this same situation. That’s why I created the following form letter to help ease the burden of chaning your address. Simply plug in the date, your name, the business you’re contacting, your old address, future address, and sign the bottom.
[Insert Date/Name/Business here]
Hello,
I’m writing to let you know I’m moving. Yep. All of me. Even my [insert types of family members and pets here]. I have also coerced my favorite furniture into joining me on this journey.
My Old Address:
My New Address:
Please update all company records in which I am included. Anything you plan to mail to me in the future, send to the address labeled “My New Address” above. If you ever plan to mail anything to the old address, consider using the nearest stapler on your forehead instead.
Yes, I am happy to confirm that the new address is also the location where I will be sleeping late at night when you and your friends are out prowling for unlocked cars. I can also confirm the place of residence lacks a home security system. No, not even a dog. But I am sorry, I cannot currently say if the neighbors across the street do it with the curtains open.
Thank you for your time. I do appreciate the opportunity to learn about new products and additional services you provide to a) protect my credit; b) go green with paperless billing c) make my life easier and/or better d) any combination of the above. I politely refuse any of these additional services at this time. I also politely refuse to allow the sharing or sale of this information with third parties, including your cousin’s fledgling “Massage in a Van” service.
Sincerely,
[Signature here]
P.S. I would be happy to take your follow-up survey. However, you will need to mail it to the New Address.
P.S.S. Yes, my social security number remains the same.
And that’s it. Twenty or so copies of this letter, and you’re done. You see, you’ve got to be quick like a boxer when dealing with this stuff — jab, dodge, cover, big right hook! But don’t forget: Be sure to sign each letter, insert them into letter-sized envelopes, and dump a bunch of white powder inside (baking soda is cheapest) before sealing. Hand delivery of these letters is recommended, but in a pinch, you can certainly hire a bicycle messenger.
I almost forgot: For all women writing these letters, you should probably add the following line, just in case: No thank you, I am happy with my current cup size.
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Hummingbird Pee 
by Erin Dunigan
“I just got peed on by a hummingbird.”
I have to say, I did wonder about posting this update to Twitter, that would then feed to my Facebook status update. I wondered about using the word peed. Did it sound too gross? I decided it was worth the risk. It was funny, no?
Sure enough, there were comments on it, both via Twitter and Facebook, almost immediately. Even the Moderator of the Presbyterian Church retweeted it, with the comment, “You don’t hear that too often, do you?”
But what became most thought provoking (yes, I can use hummingbird pee as an occasion for philosophical ponderings) was another response: “LOL. How could you tell?”
It made me wonder: How many of us walk around getting peed upon by hummingbirds but don’t even know it? Okay, maybe it’s not so prevalent as that. But her question struck me. How did you know?
How I knew was that I happened to be sitting outside, watching this particular hummingbird. As I watched, it flew closer and closer to where I was sitting. “It’s getting really close,” I thought to myself. All of a sudden it was so close that it was right above me, not two feet away, investigating a yellow blossom on a tree I happened to be sitting alongside.
“I hope it doesn’t pee on me,” is what I was thinking to myself, just as I saw the tiny bit of liquid drop from the hummingbird’s non-beak end and felt it’s splash upon my bare shin. It wasn’t really gross as much as it was fascinating. “I just got peed on by a hummingbird,” I thought to myself, and then immediately felt compelled to share it.
How did I know? I was watching it. I mean, if a cow were flying, first off, you’d notice that. It’s a bit larger of a footprint in the sky. If that flying cow were to let loose, well, there’d be no missing that either. It doesn’t have to be as extreme as a cow. Take a seagull. Again, you’d notice both the bird flying, but also what it was dropping. If a seagull were directly above me, I wouldn’t sit there to observe—I’d move.
But hummingbirds are not obvious. They are small, tiny almost, unassuming. They don’t usually make a lot of noise, though if you learn to listen for their sounds, you can easily hear one when it is near you. To see or hear a hummingbird you have to be paying attention. It’s not really a multi-tasking activity. Hummingbirds require a certain amount of attentiveness that isn’t typically found amidst a rapid pace.
How did I notice? I noticed because I happened to be sitting, outside, observing, and not really doing much of anything else. It made me wonder how often we walk around with hummingbird pee on us and don’t even know it.
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For Shit’s Sake
by Gordon Gartrell

The thing about shit is, everyone can relate to it. It is the one unifying thing we have as God’s creation. To my knowledge, everything shits. Granted, I say that as an English major as opposed to a Biology expert. Perhaps there is a biologist reading this who wants to challenge this idea by bringing up some type of mollusk that doesn’t poop but instead recycles its own waste back into its digestive system. To them I say that said mollusk is inconsequential to God’s design, and quite possibly it was an oversight on His part. I often wonder if God poops, or more selfishly, if we will poop in Heaven. I have heard that we will feast while ensconced in glory, so I have to assume that we will evacuate our bowels as well. The only difference is that every poop results in a clean cut – let’s be honest, pooping isn’t the problem, it’s the wiping. Even the most painful and disgusting of BM’s still results in a slightly orgasmic feeling, we all abhor the potential finger-painting that follows.
But I digress.
The word “shit” is a fascinating part of our vernacular. It has a great many derivatives and always makes for an exciting round of adult Mad Libs. Like “aloha” meaning both goodbye and hello, shit has the honor of being both bad (played like shit) and good (that song was the shit). To fully understand shit, and the role it plays in our lives, we must look at what animal produces it.
Bullshit. This is essentially something that is a fabrication or untruth. It does not necessarily mean a bold faced lie, but perhaps a misrepresentation of the subject matter at hand. It can also be used to describe a conversation of minimal substance, i.e. “Nothing important, just talking about a bunch of bullshit.”
Horseshit. This is a collection of absolutely unnecessary discussions or activities that are complete wastes of time. Nothing good can be inferred from something that has been described as “total horseshit.”
Apeshit. This can be a whole lot of fun. When I see a chimpanzee throwing its own feces I can’t help but be a little envious. Even if its intentions are malicious, there is a certain amount of unabashed glee inherent in the process that makes me wish there were moments when I could tolerate the feel of my own poop enough to toss it at someone who has irked me. When people go “apeshit” it implies lunacy, but not always in a way that is problematic, but instead something freeing in a primal sense.
Batshit. This implies insanity. If someone has gone batshit insane, then they are capable of just about any heinous act. I’m not sure why guano and madness are linked but I do know that every time I’ve been somewhere with people and a bat shows up, everyone loses their minds. Perhaps The Lost Boys had a bigger impact on us all than we fully realize.
Kiefer + mullet + fangs = sheer terror
While these scatological descriptors provide sufficient categorization for a variety of situations, I can’t help but feel like we need something that encapsulates the most severe of circumstances. I have perused the food chain to find another possible term for classification. Sharkshit was too alliterative, birdshit was too blasé, and dragonshit was too mythical. I was left with only one option to define the absolute worst that life has to offer: Manshit.
There may be nothing more reprehensible than human fecal matter. Especially if it is found outside of the context of an unflushed toilet – which is bad enough mind you. I always feel somewhat surprised when I see someone else’s turd in the toilet when I open the lid. On a conscious level, I understand that other people use these things in the same fashion that I do, but on a subconscious level I suppose that I like to imagine that commode elves come in and tear down and rebuild new toilets in the blink of an eye making every plopping its own unique experience. When I see that melting frayed rope staring back at me, I realize that there are no such creatures, just forgetful people who seem to have had an awful lot to eat.
Human poop on the ground is quite possibly the most disturbing sight in the history of life. I’ll never forget the first time I saw manshit outside of a toilet. I was at summer camp in seventh grade. I walked into the bathroom and there it was in all its tacky, glistening glory. Several feet away from the stall on the tile floor laid the human soft serve pile and I was mortified. I tried to get off the floor as if a live electrical wire had hit the wading pool I was standing in. I felt like touching the same tile was the same as standing in the shit itself. I backed out of the restroom slowly as if I was watching a wolverine eat a toddler; I didn’t want to move too quickly so as to arouse it to come after me. Once out of sight, I quickly ran to get an adult and while they obviously agreed that the poop needed to be removed, they didn’t quite share my terror.
One time when I was camping I had to take care of my business and was compelled to poop behind a tree. I had never felt like such a waste of evolution in all my life. I couldn’t shake the feeling that I am a successful, married man with children and should not be squatting over a pile of rocks with paper towels in my hand. I couldn’t help but think I was way too American to be doing such a thing.
Given our diet and hygiene, manshit is vile. All other forms of manure can be tolerated, but I guarantee you that if should ever step in a pile of human excrement you will consider throwing your shoe away before even thinking about cleaning it. I might even contemplate moving to a different state to try and piece my life back together after such an event. I propose we embrace the word “manshit” as the all encompassing synonym for awfulness.
If you wondering how best to use the term, here is a helpful example: When someone cuts you off on the freeway, you could say that was horseshit. But when someone cuts you off on the freeway and then they throw a rotten pumpkin filled with dead kittens at your windshield, that would be manshit.
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Real Ingredients
You will note, to begin with, that the onion is a thing, a being, just as you are. Savor that for a moment. The two of you sit here in mutual confrontation. Together with knife, board, table, and chair, you are the constituents of a place in the highest sense of the word. This is a Session, a meeting, a society of things.
Robert Farrar Capon, The Supper of the Lamb: A Culinary Reflection
We do not rise to the conflict of spiritual struggle unless we first conquer the enemy posited within us, namely, our gluttonous appetite.
Gregory the Great, Morals on the Book of Job
Walkers [sic] potato crisps, the British division of Lay’s potato chips, changed their gourmet “Walkers Sensations” packaging recently and so is promoting their crisps with deep discounts. I therefore have been consuming their Thai Sweet Chilli and Balsamic Vinegar & Caramelised Onion crisps at a fairly rapid rate most days at lunch, knowing that the price will go up soon. With the new packaging comes new literature. The bags are now black instead of white so on the back is the line “Black is the new white!” Why the word “new” is boldfaced I don’t know. Perhaps they don’t want to confuse black with the old white, which is a different white than black, which isn’t actually white, so I still don’t know why “new” is boldfaced. I also don’t know if the line is a reference to Barack Obama in some way, but I don’t suspect the copywriter knows either.
More perplexing is the only line on the front not there for onomastic or legal reasons. It reads, “Made with real ingredients.” What purpose does this hold? Is there a potato chip not made from real ingredients? Or is there something deeper to this message. Perhaps the people at Walkers Sensations are Platonists and believe their crisp contains properties metaphysically singular in the snack food realm. I confess it did send me to the ingredients list to see what constitutes real and if I could somehow catch them inserting an illusory ingredient into their product. Of course, even if I could find a fanstastical component in the list, it would not falsify the statement since the statement itself does not preclude the inclusion of at least a few unreal ingredients. It only states that at least two of the ingredients exist—the others are on their own.
In case you’re curious, the ingredients listed are surprisingly natural sounding—“natural” being the adjective I’m taking “real” to imply. Three ingredients might require further inspection: calcium chloride, flavouring, and fructose. Calcium chloride may be real, and it may be natural, but does that even mean anything? Hydrochloric acid is both real and natural but I would hesitate to eat it. So what does it say about our eating habits that a major company with lots of money reserved for advertising can market a product with a line as meaningless as “made with real ingredients?” How many ingredients, real or unreal, can one edible substance contain and still be considered food? What does it say about me that I eat this product everyday?
My perseveration over this potato crisp package has become typical in my food consumption. My interest includes not only the realness of the food, however, but also its provenance. The back of the Walkers bag, unfortunately, contains much information regarding the relative nutrition of a Thai Sweet Chilli crisp and of the various real ingredients that make up a crisp but it neglects to inform its reader where the ingredients came into existence in the first place. However, the Britons are generally better at revealing the provenance of a food product than what I remember of American sellers. Though these labels generally fall in the produce and meat aisles, even some processed foods have labels with place names. (However, the potato chip companies are generally looking for the more exotic locales to place on their packages. There are potato chips flavored with “South Indian black pepper,” “Irish sea salt,” and “Lancashire Stilton cheese.”) It’s possible that supermarkets in the States present this information and I just didn’t think it mattered until a few years ago, but I suspect that’s not the case.
The other advantage to buying food in the UK is the relative affordability of organic products. Because the British government doesn’t practice the insane policy of subsidizing inedible corn, as illustrated in Michael Pollan’s extremely important book The Omnivore’s Dilemma, products that don’t use corn don’t cost much more than products that do. So organic grass fed beef is only about 20 cents more per pound than beef with antibiotics. Organic milk is similarly affordable.
But Pollan shows that the organic label isn’t always all it’s cracked up to be. Organic food is likely better for you than non-organic food, and it’s likely better for the environment than food that uses pesticides or hormone injections. But what if your choice is between organic apples from California or non-organic apples from England, as my choice was today? How beneficial is it for the environment not to use pesticides if you’re then going to release tons of carbon into the atmosphere just transporting the apples to Scotland? If the market for organic apples is such that a farmer in California is able to sell them to Tesco in the UK rather than Safeway in Arizona, is that the best use of the land?
Therefore I concern myself with location over substance… kind of. Trying to implement at least a little of what I learn into my quotidian ethics, we have started buying most of our vegetables from a local and organic farm (two birds…) that delivers 11 pounds Sterling worth of produce to our door each week. This being Scotland and this being March, we have been consuming a lot of potatoes (even on top of my Walkers crisps). Unfortunately (obviously?), we can’t get all of our food from this single farm so I have to go to Tesco for milk, bread, pasta, etc. and thereby get tempted by the crisps and biscuits.
At Tesco, I encounter multiple label problems. Last week I stood in front of the minced beef section for several minutes trying to decide what would be the best combination of ethical, healthy, and economical beef I could find. The organic beef (£2.94/500g) was British, but not necessarily Scottish so it could have travelled several hundred miles to get to the store. It was also fairly high in fat. There was a Scottish beef (£2.74/500g) that probably travelled less and was also a bit leaner, but what else lurked in the mince? It came with a short narrative of the origins of the beef, but neglected to tell me which county the cow grew up in (and if it lived its whole life there or was born a ways away). It assured me that the cattle were raised according to Tesco’s high standards but did not say what those standards were. And then there was the extra lean as well as Tesco’s Finest, the latter of which is what I settled on. I forgot why. Some impulse. Also I was getting hungry.
Since I don’t buy beef very often at all, I suspect I’ll go through the same process the next time. With milk, I have less of an issue. My daughter drinks whole milk and my wife and I drink semi-skimmed (1.5%). I get the organic whole milk for my daughter because I’m concerned about her health and a new product called “Local Choice” for the grown-ups. What is in the Local Choice that is not in the organic? I’m afraid to ask. What I’m not afraid to ask but don’t know to whom I should ask it is why can’t I get locally sourced milk that is also organic? Oh well. I suppose I’m sacrificing my health for that of the planet’s (but perhaps I’m putting a potential strain on the National Health Service which could cause the government to skimp on green initiatives in the future, thus obviating the whole purpose of me buying the local milk in the first place).
 Eggs are another (I was going to write Hobson’s choice, but it’s more a combination of a Morton’s Fork and Buridan’s Ass—I’m open to suggestions) dilemma of the modern omnivore, mainly because the prices of the different types of eggs are quite varied. The cheapest are caged eggs, which is a blunter description than one’s likely to see in the states, I would think. Then there are organic eggs which are comparable in price to free range eggs. By far the most expensive (sometimes twice the cost of the next highest) are organic free range eggs. I have, ever sense I heard a sermon years ago on the commandment to keep the Sabbath holy (which includes livestock) and subsequently watched the movie Baraka, bought free range eggs. But of course Pollan made me question the meaning of that too, since chickens are merely given the option of going outdoors but they don’t tend to do so since their food is indoors. Nevertheless, free range is better than caged if I have the choice. But what exactly are the living arrangements of a caged, yet organic egg layer? Is here another situation where I am sacrificing my own health for the relative welfare of a chicken? And would the chicken rather stretch its legs or be drug free anyway? I have no way of knowing for sure.
Robert Farrar Capon, in his cook book The Supper of the Lamb, writes about how sometimes the simplest things are quite complex and the most complex things are quite simple. He’s talking about the amounts of ingredients in pastry, but underlying the entire book is a bit of a lament over how complex food has unnecessarily become (and he wrote that book in 1967!). As the food industry has become more dependent on chemists than on biologists, the number of ingredients in most brand name foods has the ability to boggle the mind. How did they come up with that combination? It seems extraordinarily complex and yet it has become much simpler to consume these engineered foods than the supposedly simple ones with no added substances.
It has also become very complex to eat foods in season, which seems crazy. Another favorite cook book in our household is a Mennonite number called Simply in Season. But it’s just not that simple to accomplish simple in season. Even if a food is in season in your part of the world, you’re not always guaranteed that it will be more available than one from thousands of miles away. And if it comes from your supermarket, you’re not always guaranteed that the local produce hasn’t travelled hundreds of miles away from you to be packaged in another state and then be shipped back to you with the deceptive label “local”.
Hopefully I can figure out all these problems by next week—that’s when the potato chip sale will be over. It’s much easier to be ethical when you’re priced out of junk food.
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A Defense of Nature Poetry
Section II: The Boundary between Nature and Culture: A Look at Emily Dickinson's Rat
Along with expanding the ecological self (see Section I), Nature poetry assists readers in exploring the boundary between Nature and Culture.
These seemingly opposite terms, Nature and Culture, need clarification. I do not see them as opposing forces but as interactive. I do not like the term "environment" for the word "environ" means "to surround." Therefore, the term implicitly divides the human (Culture) from her/his surroundings (Nature), suggesting an us/them illusion. I prefer the term "ecosphere," for the Greek root "eco" ("oikos") means "house." Insects, plants, amphibians, birds, reptiles, mammals, rocks, soil, air, water, and fire are each members of this house. Each member of the house is interrelated with every other member.
Within the ecosphere, there is an ebb and flow between Nature and Culture. To illustrate this point, I paint the following picture. This morning, I stood in the parking lot of Target in Longmont, Colorado and looked west. The branches of a young Ash tree grew five feet from me. At twenty five feet, I could see a row of Spruces. Just beyond that, my eyes brushed the tops of many Cottonwoods. Roughly four miles away, I could see the earth crumple into the foothills of the Rockies, beyond which loomed Longs Peak, one of the many 14,000 foot mountains rising from the Continental Divide.
At some point, my gaze crossed a line between Culture (the City) and Nature, but this is a fuzzy line. Imagine the City as a river that flows into Nature. At first, the torrent is strong with skyscrapers, grids, and interstates, but then the City loses momentum. Soon there are back roads and country roads frequented by motorcyclists, cyclists, and convertibles. From there, the roads become scarce, turning into jeep trails and hiking trails, which people use only to visit. Further in, the wilderness subsumes all into its vastness until there are few vestiges (if any) of humanity interacting with it.
However, the reverse is true. Imagine Nature as a river that flows into the City. At first, the torrent is strong with peaks, granite cirques, batholiths, glaciers, streams, and alpine meadows lined with trails of small creatures. Soon, there are alpine forests, then denser forests, larger trees, and animal trails. At some point, the trees diminish as they enter rural communities and the suburbs until the wilderness is subsumed into the vastness of the City. Trees (and some of the animal life they support) are still present in the City, but the urban forest is a far cry from a wilderness ecosystem just as a hiking trail is a far cry from an Interstate.
Nature and Culture often sit on polar ends of a spectrum within our minds, but the reality is that the tension between them creates an interactive boundary where both are present. Some Nature poems explore this boundary (and help readers to do the same), and this fact becomes the second main point of my defense.
As we move to explore Emily Dickinson's rat (which is a creature that dwells in the boundary between Nature and Culture), let it be established that the theme of Ecological Identification, explored in Section I of this Defense, pervades Dickinson's verse as well. Too often, people think of Dickinson as a recluse, isolated and lonely. Her nature poems balance that perspective, for one cannot look at three pages without encountering a robin, butterfly, violet, breeze, sunshine, storm, lizard, bee, orchid, or cloud (etcetera). Just as Whitman felt like he would die if he could not find an outlet for his expanding ecological self, Dickinson articulates the sense that her "heart / Would split" due to the abundance and intensity of her identification with nonhuman life (109).
Along with ecological identification, Dickinson's poetry explores the boundary lands between immortality and mortality, death and life, the question and the answer, as well as between Nature and Culture. This last boundary land is explored within her Rat poem.
In Dickinson's time (just as in our own), the Rat dwelled within the boundary between Nature and Culture. The following poem helps readers navigate this boundary region, and it does so by challenging the assumption that the rodent is a pest:
The rat is the concisest tenant.
He pays no rent,--
Repudiates the obligation,
On schemes intent.
Balking our wit
To sound or circumvent,
Hate cannot harm
A foe so reticent.
Neither decree
Prohibits him,
Lawful as
Equilibrium. (Dickinson 188)
Dickinson is an elusive poet, and the following summary seeks to elaborate the gist of the poem: the rat is the most concise tenant as he occupies an insignificant amount of space. Therefore, he is a manageable tenant despite the fact that he repudiates the obligation to pay rent. Even though he hatches schemes, it is difficult to become angry at him as he is, most of the time, inconsequential due to his reticence. Even if a decree declared the rat must leave the house, it would not prohibit him as he is following the greater law, the law of Equilibrium.
"Equilibrium" denotes the "balance due to equal action of opposing forces"--or an "equal balance between any powers." In the context of an ecosystem, harmony is established through innumerable relationships that have attained a balance of power. The crux of the poem, therefore, is that it urges readers to explore the distribution of power within the tension of the boundary between Nature and Human Civilization.
What is our place within the "house" (the ecosphere)? Does it matter if human laws violate the law of Equilibrium? What is the place of the rat? Is it possible for humans and rats to coexist? Is the Rat a pest?--or a guest? Is the Human a pest?--or a guest?
The damned rat. Its pesky presence is an ever present reminder of the ebb and flow of Nature and Culture--but the rat could say, "The damned human." We build our homes within an already existing ecosystem (a house of existing relationships), and then ignorantly complain of the presence of any creature we do not desire. I am reminded of home owners along the Front Range of Colorado who want to live in the foothills and yet persistently complain of rattlesnakes and the amount of water it takes to keep exotic (rather than native) grass green.
Dickinson recognized what many of us fail to, that the number one law of the ecosphere is Equilibrium. Humanity has created an imbalance of power. A question emerges: "How does a species that has acquired too much power learn to relinquish the power so as to reestablish Equilibrium?"
An exploration of Dickinson's rat poem leads us not only into an exploration of the boundary between Nature and Culture, but also into a questioning of how humans can seek to restore Equilibrium.
A cycle of thought emerges from my Defense of Nature Poetry. Ecological Identification (say, with a rat) leads to questioning the value systems with which Culture interrelates with Nature. This questioning may inspire a change of lifestyle concerning how we interact with nonhuman life, especially if we seek to live based upon the principle of Equilibrium. The change in lifestyle broadens one's awareness of all life-forms in the ecosphere, which, in turn, inspires other identifications.
Identification ---> Questioning Values ---> Altering Lifestyle ---> Identification....
One result of this cycle is that we begin to experience what Whitman and Dickinson expressed: the sense that they would split or burst if there is not an outlet for the abounding ecological self.
In the next section, I will explore a poem by the contemporary poet, W. S. Merwin. Following the cycle outlined above, the emphasis will be upon how the poem, in seven short lines, reveals how identifying with nature inspires a questioning of human-centric assumptions, which may lead to altering one's lifestyle ever so slightly, a process that can assist us as we seek to be good guests in the house we call, "Planet Earth."
Works Cited
Dickinson, Emily. The Selected Poems & Letters of Emily Dickinson. Ed. Robert N. Linscott. New York: Anchor, 1959.
Photograph from <http://www.holycowboy.com/?p=12>
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The Existential Anguish of Eating Vegetables in the Epoch of the Ecological
Jean-Paul Sartre's play, "No Exit," boils down to the painful epiphany hell is other people. If Heidegger's Being towards Death was not enough, now the existential neophyte must figure out how to be towards the inferno of all infernos, relationships--unless, of course, one is content being lost in the cosmos. And yet, if other people were nice, would that not make a heaven out of hell?--would that not make life worth living?
Existentialism is one of those words that philosophers love to define through a disclaimer which they subsequently unravel leaving the reader lost amidst a void of meaninglessness. However, one Existentialist attempted a non-tortuous explanation. This makes sense as he penned the succinct aphorism hell is other people. As Sartre defines the term in his essay "Existentialism," he clearly articulates one concept that has great import for the almost-but-not-quite-yet vegetarian--specifically, he reveals one way that anguish can arise:
"Certainly, many people believe that when they do something, they themselves are the only ones involved, and when someone says to them, 'What if everyone acted that way?' they shrug their shoulders and answer, 'Everyone doesn't act that way.' But really, one should always ask himself, 'What would happen if everybody looked at things that way?' There is no escaping this disturbing thought."
One contributing cause to existential anguish is, therefore, the realization that I am simultaneously individual and communal. My actions affect not only my life, but the well-being of all life-forms within the ecosphere.
Strikingly, Sartre's what would happen if concept captures the essence of Ecological thinking. The Deep Ecologist (a term first used by the Norwegian mountaineer and philosopher Arne Naess) bases his or her lifestyle upon the knowledge that all life-forms are interrelated. The goal is symbiosis, and a life-form is most fit (and thus has the most chances of surviving) when it is enmeshed within the interrelated fabric of the ecosphere.
The budding Deep Ecologist experiences existential anguish the moment he or she realizes that every action affects the communal whole, which includes both human and non-human life. Many people misunderstand this concept as they conclude that the Deep Ecologist is concerned solely with the well-being of plants and animals. Naess actively supports three movements: nonviolence, social justice, and deep ecology. All three movements are interrelated, and their titles affirm the fervent activism for human rights.
Therefore, to speak of the Deep Ecologist's anguish, one must apply Sartre's questions to both non-human and human life. First, let's focus on non-human life. To paint a dark image, what would the world look like if every human purchased ivory?--if every home was decorated with big game trophies?--if every home was built out of old-growth trees?--if every human shot wolves for sport? Contrarily, and to paint a harmonious image, what would the world look like if every human turned their Kentucky Blue Grass into a garden?--if every human practiced conservation?--if every human drank out of a reusable water-bottle instead of a disposable cup?--if every human carpooled?--if every human treated all life-forms with respect?
Likewise, the Deep Ecologist is concerned with human life. What would the world look like if everyone spoke a kind word to a neighbor?--if every human cared about the AIDS Crisis?--if every human actively protested Genocide?--if every human shared blankets, food, and shelter with those in need?--if every human lived a sustainable lifestyle so as to procure the well-being of all?
For the existential deep ecologist, the anguish amplifies during every moment of inaction. What would the world look like if every human did...nothing!
Here lies the crux of why I became a vegetarian. I did it because I recognize the paradox that I am an individual and yet intimately intertwined with all life-forms in the ecosphere. I did it because of anguish. I did it because eating meat on a global scale is not sustainable. I did it after realizing the most practical way to diminish my global footprint is to alter the patterns of my daily lifestyle. A tremendous amount of energy is needed to place a sirloin steak at the dinner table simply because of all the energy consumed behind the scenes. Eating meat at every meal is not sustainable. I did it because vegetarianism actively participates in social justice.
For much time, I hesitated. After all, how can my choice really make a big difference in the world?--but the anguish transformed into inspiration. What would the world look like if every human chose foods that get their energy directly from the sun?--if every human substantially reduced his or her global footprint by altering eating habits?--if every human understood the energy involved in getting food on the plate and acted accordingly?--if every human shopped at the local farmer's market?--if every  human in a country of plenty acted upon the social injustice that the majority of humans live in want?--if every human strived to be a heaven (rather than a hell) to other people?
When I studied Existentialism by candlelight in the shadows of the forest during my college years, I never would have guessed it could be so practical; I never would have guessed that the condemned atheists would teach me responsibility; I never would have guessed that anguish would be the impetus behind my choice to eat vegetables in this epoch of the ecological...and that the anguish would transform into joy.
Works Cited
Sartre, Jean-Paul. "Existentialism." The Norton Reader. Ed. Linda H. Peterson and John C. Brereton. New York: Norton, 2004. 719-727.
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Pre-coffee
Soft underbelly my garment
As counter approached
And
And
Filter is fumbled for in cupboard
To be accompanied by grounds and water insistently poured
Then clicked on
And mild other activities employed
Start toast
Find jam
Locate butter
Employ all neurons in process of determining which mug one is in the mood for:
Deep and brightly colored?
Shallow thin and neutral?
One telling of locale once visited
Or brought back from someone else’s trip?
Gurgling turned to last sputters of caffeinated bliss
And hope commences
Warmth resplendent with brown scent descends to mug
Milky goodness and sweet extract complimenting perfection
Spoon replaced on counter
First sip.
OM.
Second and then on and toast consumed
Until mug is emptied of its treasure
And life has begun anew
Breakfast things set aside for to-do list
And subsequent checking off and thoughts of how to solve all of life’s problems
Such as bad ex-boyfriends, lint on pants and saving money
Encountered, conquered, registered as done.
Saving the world one cup at a time.
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(Robertson)
A Defense of Nature Poetry
Section I: Nature Poetry and the Ecological Self
(for the Introduction, click here)
Michael Mulligan
Arne Naess, the mountaineer and philosopher who first used the term "Deep Ecology," defines two selves: the ecological self and the alienated self (262). The alienated self needs little explanation, but it may be helpful to note that the ecological self is that part of us that recognizes our interconnectivity with all that environs (or surrounds) us. These two selves comprise the very crux of human existence.
In poetic terms, John Donne captures this tension in his well-known meditation: "No man is an island, entire of itself; every man is a piece of the continent, a part of the main." To be human is to know both the alienation of the island as well as the community of the mainland, sometimes even simultaneously.
We have two sides of the same coin: the island and the mainland; the isolated and the communal; the alienated and the ecological. But this is where Nature poetry can be most illuminating. Many nature poems explore some aspect of the movement from the alienated self to the ecological self. This movement encapsulates the number one reason why Nature poetry is more than a picturesque painting of words.
In Walt Whitman's verse, the desperation of the alienated self is explored through the image of a solitary spider. Whitman marvels at the seemingly futile attempts of a spider to connect with something...anything...and then he compares the spider to his soul:
A noiseless patient spider,
I mark'd where on the little promontory it stood isolated,
Mark'd how to explore the vacant vast surrounding,
It launch'd forth filament, filament, filament out of itself,
Ever unreeling them, ever tirelessly speeding them.
And you O my soul where you stand,
Surrounded, detached, in measureless oceans of space,
Ceaselessly musing, venturing, throwing, seeking the spheres
to connect them,
Till the bridge you will need be form'd, till the ductile
anchor hold,
Till the gossamer thread you fling catch somewhere, O my
soul. (564-65)
He seeks a web of connections. He seeks to expand his alienated self so that it enters into the fullness of the ecological self, and there is perhaps no other work that so intensely captures the abounding energy of the ecological self than "Song of Myself." This is not the ramblings of a megalomaniac, nor is it egophilia. It is ecophilia: the love of interrelationships. We must recognize that Whitman sings of every (and I mean every) single entity that his Soul's spider-thread anchored too, every bridge his soul has crossed in order to identify with whomever is on the other side. This is why page after page enumerates upon this life-form and that life-form, "absorbing all to myself and for this song" (199).
Whitman reveals the "origin of all poems," which is nothing short of a being that expands through its identification with all that is within the ecosphere. The whole point of "Song of Myself" is to pass the gift of listening (and consequently identifying with other life-forms thereby expanding one's ecological self) on to the reader:
Stop this day and night with me and you shall possess the
origin of all poems,
You shall possess the good of the earth and sun, (there are
millions of suns left,)
You shall no longer take things at second or third hand, nor
look through the eyes of the dead, nor feed on the
spectres in books,
You shall not look through my eyes either, nor take things
from me,
You shall listen to all sides and filter them from your self. (189-190, underline added)
One example of "listening" emerges from Whitman's identification with Oxen. The Oxen, therefore, exemplify one instance where the "ductile anchor" of his Soul's thread held on:
Oxen that rattle the yoke and chain or halt in the leafy
shade, what is that you express in your eyes?
It seems to me more than all the print I have read in my life. (199)
Part of his song celebrates the often overlooked miracles within the earth--miracles his Soul has identified with:
I believe a leaf of grass is no less than the journey-work of
the stars,
And the pismire is equally perfect, and a grain of sand, and
the egg of the wren,
And the tree-toad is the chef-d'œuvre for the highest,
And the running blackberry would adorn the parlors of
heaven,
And the narrowest hinge in my hand puts to scorn all
machinery,
And the cow crunching with depress'd head surpasses any
statue,
And a mouse is miracle enough to stagger sextillions of
infidels. (217)
Along with the nonhuman life of the ecosphere, Whitman celebrates each and every human being from every walk of life. Page after page celebrates individual after individual. It is as if anything that every lived, is living, or will live is compressed into his Song:
All these tend inward to me, and I tend outward to them,
And such as it is to be of these more or less I am,
And of these one and all I weave the song of myself. (203)
The spider thread connections are so abundant that Whitman would burst if it were not for the outlet of his song:
Dazzling and tremendous how quick the sun-rise would kill
me,
If I could not now and always send a sun-rise out of me. (213)
Whitman's song, then, reflects the awareness that he is not an isolated or alienated self, but rather a communal and ecological self. He is intimately embedded within the mainland.
Whitman's lines, quoted above, help establish one critical aspect of Nature poetry. Often, Nature poetry celebrates how that inscrutable part of us (Whitman calls it our Soul) expands as it identifies with that which surrounds us. This ecological identification often assumes a much muted presence in our lives, which, in turn, diminishes us as human beings. Reading Nature poetry can act as a counter-influence, reminding us and teaching us that to be human is to be embedded within the interrelations of the ecosphere.
The relationship between Nature poetry and the ecological self, explored fairly quickly here, will be the focus of several of the following sections in "A Defense of Nature Poetry." Though the theme will be constant, each poet to be explored presents a unique nuance that helps deepen, line by line, the ecological self.
The next section will feature another American voice: Emily Dickinson. Her Nature poetry further explores the ecological self, but it does so from a different angle. Whereas Whitman is known for his ever reaching voice, Dickinson is known for her succinct, coy, and cryptic poetics. It is no mistake that I am beginning with Whitman and Dickinson, for they are held in high esteem as the headwaters of all the American poetry written thereafter.
Works Cited
Naess, Arne. "Identification as a Source of Deep Ecological Attitudes." Deep Ecology. Ed. Michael Tobias. San Diego: Avant, 1984. 256-270.
Robertson, Mary Ann. "Spider Spinning Web (blue)." September 2005. 22 February 2009 <http://www.pbase.com/marobertson/image/49789411>.
Whitman, Walt. Whitman Poetry and Prose. New York: Library of America, 1982.
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A Defense of Nature Poetry: An Introduction
When asked what I do for a living, I reply, "I teach poetry."
I cannot recount each of the varied expressions I receive in return, but underneath the crinkling of foreheads, the narrowing eyes, the suppressed smirk, or the blatant guffaw, a recurring motif, if you will, is voiced. Poetry is not valued.
At times, I am asked a follow-up question, "What type of poetry do you teach?" When I have a choice, I prefer to teach poems that increase our awareness of social injustice, poems that cause us to celebrate our humanity, or poems that explore humanity's relationship with the ecosphere. In my mind, these types of poems are closely related. We treat each other how we treat the earth.
You can imagine the response of an inquirer at my answer. They normally grasp the significance of poetry that explores social injustice and our humanity, but they often struggle to see the usefulness of Nature poems. Nature poetry is nothing more than a picturesque painting of words, not unlike an Ansel Adams hanging in the living room. It is nice, effective, and it may evoke awe, but in the big scheme of things, Nature poetry amounts to little, if any, consequence--or so the argument runs. Why would someone pursue a career that involves the teaching of Nature poetry? How can the teaching of Nature poetry affect positive change within humanity's ideology? Would an education that focuses upon Nature poetry better the world?
I answer, yes to the third question, but in order to do justice to the second, we must launch on a journey through several articles. My answer to the first question will become self-evident.
My primary audience is people who see no point in Nature poetry; however, if you are already a nature enthusiast--and if you already cannot head to the mountains without some poetic lines in your back pocket--I promise that you will not be disappointed. There will be new thoughts to contemplate as I seek to amplify the words of our poets, for the best defense of Nature poetry lies within the lines themselves.
Every two weeks, a new article will appear.
The next article will explore how Nature poetry affects what Arne Naess, the mountaineer and Deep Ecologist from Norway, calls the ecological-self: that part of us which identifies with the life-forms environing us. The foil for the ecological-self is the alienated-self. Our poet of focus will be Walt Whitman, and we will see how Uncle Walt wrestles with the two polar selves in a few of his well-known Nature poems from Leaves of Grass.
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